This morning I got my workout on early and then hit the grocery store to buy a pumpkin to decorate in honor of the Teal Pumpkin Project. If you missed my post about this initiative, check it out here. Anyway, this was a pretty sad attempt at a teal pumpkin (see pic below). I tried mixing blue, white and light purple from the paints I had on hand thinking it may do the trick. Unfortunately it turned out more of a light blue than teal. After it was done, Erik, who happened to be an art/graphics major back in the day, was quick to inform me that I needed to add green. Oh well... better luck next year!
Now onto other Halloween ramblings...
While working out this morning, my mind started wandering to Halloween festivities in the past. Halloween is one of my all-time favorite holidays. My family and I watched the movie Hocus Pocus approximately one million times (slight exaggeration, but maybe not), while growing up and we always had fun picking out or making costumes. After the trick-or-treating years ended, surprisingly dress up didn't end. After growing up, Halloween became known as one of the BEST party weekends of the year, especially during college and a couple years post. However, Halloween did not mean one night of celebration. It meant multiple nights and multiple costumes for me and friends.
Below are a few of my favorite homemade costumes through the years. A ninja turtle costume while living in Australia studying abroad (2007), a Katy Perry California Girl while in the Disney College Program right after graduating (2010) and Oscar the Grouch my first couple months living in San Diego (2011).
So while my mind was wandering on the treadmill this morning, I started thinking about how I really felt during those Halloween festivities that meant partying multiple days on end. Being 100% honest, while I wouldn't trade those memories with friends or the lessons learned during those years, I also wouldn't want to go back to that time period either. Here's why:
- I felt an extreme pressure to drink to fit in and socialize. This was a self-inflicted pressure as I attempted to use alcohol to make me a more outgoing person in uncomfortable social environments.
- I always felt so crappy and embarrassed the next day. Even if I literally did nothing "wrong," the next day I always felt embarrassed or a little ashamed no matter what. I'm a super emotional person (maybe you pick that up in my writing), so me + alcohol = HIGH EMOTIONS. I don't miss crying or getting upset over issues or people that have no concerns with while sober. Yeah... don't miss that at all!
- The amount of time and energy I put into trying to "undo" the damage from drinking from a physical sense drove me crazy. While all three of those photos were taken, I was restricting calories during the day to try to "save up" calories for drinking, to then come home after the party ended and feed my starving body. The next day, despite a hangover, to the gym I would go to do cardio, cardio, cardio. It was a vicious, unproductive and unhealthy cycle. The Oscar costume I was particularly proud of because I was at my heaviest, holding lots of weight around the middle, so this costume covered in just the right way.
Hope you have a blast tonight, drink or no drink! ;-)